The waves of heartbreak
Neeta had recently joint a multinational IT company as a
chartered accountant. Ramya worked in the same office. A smart and polished
girl with great educational background, they had hit it off instantly. Within a
week, they were having tea and lunch together. Ramya did have a lot of other friends
but she seemed to enjoy Neeta’s company a lot.
One her part, Neeta was relieved to find a kindred soul like
Ramya. Ramya's positivity also had a great impact on her. They shared a lot of interests, value and thoughts or opinions on
matters of the world and life. By the end of three months, they had started
hanging out over the weekends or visiting each other’s houses. Ramya lived with
her family and her parents grew fond of Neeta too, whose own family lived in
the native village.
Soon it was Diwali time and Ramya told Neeta about her
holiday plans. Somehow it happened that Neeta ended up joining Ramya on her annual
vacation this time, since Ramya’s mother was unwell and unable to travel and
her father had stayed back to take care. When Ramya described the place and
everything around it, Neeta had jumped at the idea. She was going through a
rough patch in her personal life and this was just the break she was looking
for. When she was breaking up with Rajiv, she did not know that it would impact
her in this way. Now no matter how hard she tried, she saw his presence
everywhere, she kept remembering his words, his quirks, things she loved or
hated about him and everything else which she associated with him. The impact
was such that she has almost forgotten what or who she was before she met him.
When they reached the resort on the outskirts of Goa, Neera’s
heart took a leap. Ramya was coming there every year since her family had a
time-share plan, but for Neeta this was stuff that dreams were made of. They reached
in the evening, and as Ramya went around making sure that the room had
everything they needed, Neeta just sat by the beach and stared at the sea the
whole time.
Every wave that came her way, seemed to bring with it a set
of new emotions and feelings. Rajeev and she had taken a vacation together
once. They had gone to the hills. It had been a huge step for her, given the
middle class upbringing and school of thought. But it had been a wonderful
dreamy time. They held hands, walked together on the mall road, and shared
stories over food. Six months after that he had told her that there was
something about the relationship that was not working out for him. That was it.
He did not give any explanations or reasons. At first she was numb with shock
and did not even know how to react. She had kept quiet for an hour as he sat
there uncomfortable and then when he asked if he could leave, she had cried for
an hour. Then when he got up to leave, she started screaming and asking him
questions. Do you know how I feel? Do you know the impact of this in my life? He
just looked at her and said he had no answers. That’s it.
As her eyes began to get moist again, Ramya came up from
behind. She said the rooms were all set with warm baths and clean blankets. The
food was ready and the next day they were going on a boat to an island two
hours away from the resort. Suddenly Neeta felt as if she was like a little
morsel in the cosmos, as if her pain was just part of something much larger, as
if this beautiful soul sitting around her was meant to share these moments with
her, as if mourning over a personal loss for so long was doing injustice to
everything else that was so beautiful and perfect…
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